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Air....

Fri, 13 Oct 2006 08:52:40 GMT

I never realized how much stress took air out of my lungs.

I feel like I can finally breathe today,

not clear, not without weazing, not full deap breaths, but yet air is finally getting in

It is hard to relearn how to smile, especially when that was all I based my life around for so long,

smiling no matter what I felt inside...

I always seem to know how to push someone away when I dont want to

Tue, 10 Oct 2006 21:16:03 GMT

What is with life in how some poeple just seeming know how to ruin relationships, friendships, or people lives in general. I never seem to have a limit on myself in how I treat myself and then without thinking I hurt others.

I just need to crawl into a little cabin in the woods have all the necesities I need and just live there for a year come out just to say hi then crawl back in.

Better yet I should jut crawl into a hole and die.....blahhhhhh ugh life so sucks right now I don't even know how to communicate what I am feeling....

Life Sucks when you make mistakes, even worse when life's mistakes take advatage of you...

Thu, 05 Oct 2006 04:45:09 GMT

Wouldn't it be great if sweatpants were sexy, mornings were fun, junk food didn't make you fat, girls didn't cause drama, boys weren't so confusing, you always had time to do what you wanted,
nothing was regrettable
and goodbye's only meant until tomorrow...

ahhh, life on another planet, or yet just a dream...

Chicks before Dicks...or so I thought...

Sat, 02 Sep 2006 23:56:01 GMT

I guess you can really tell how close your friends really are after they get a boyfriend or husband, whatever the fact may be.

Its pouring down rain outside and its actually kinda cool.

I love just hanging out here at the theatre, it makes me happy. One of the few things that truly makes my heart smile right now.

Some poeple can be such bitches when you would least expect it.

Thank God for love,

without that there would be a vast emptyness of emotionless people.

I am not though, one of them.

Emotions seems like some of the only thing sthat I have. I might not show it all the time but I am that of which an entire thunderstorm or rainbow of emotions could be.

*smile*

I could fall into a deep peaceful sleep to that voice...

Update time

Tue, 08 Aug 2006 02:55:37 GMT

So from an unknown sorce....Aunt Jeanette.... :) I was told I HAD to update my blog...
I have been running around like a chicken with my head cut off. Its been a blast.
VBS all last week, this weekend I was playing in a softball tourney and we did too good cause next weekend we are going to state...lol but thats cool with me!
I am single and sassy and loving it. Got rid of the 30 year old guy with the 3 kids...(thank god) what was i thinking. We are still friends though so that part is cool.
I am no longer working at Barbs for now just through the rest of the summer probably. Maybe start up again late fall.
Still pluggin on strong at Printworks and havin fun at the theatre all along the way.

Well since i am sittin in the theatre right now stealing a friends pc and its funny to watch him be bored lol
well i think that this is a good update for now...do you? :)
luv to all
~M

Life, after love, so called love, crushes and desires

Mon, 24 Jul 2006 03:29:48 GMT

deep breathe after deep breathe

i am pleased with myself, that makes me happy,

I still dont know what I want to do with my life.....I think that I might want to go back to school eventually.....some things need to change first though...

I am tired...

Sat, 01 Jul 2006 19:33:35 GMT

Monica got to Homer today

I couldn't be happier

I think that I am going to brek up with him,

he lives in the past and is negative reminds me of my dad 10 years ago...so not cool

and I am so not ready to be a mom to 3 kids that aren't mine...

Hello, My name is Misti.....I am a workoholic...

Sat, 10 Jun 2006 19:08:49 GMT

Gotta pay the bills, car payment, rent, gas, cell phone, credit card, and everything else,

thank God that I like to work....

My life as I know it...

Fri, 26 May 2006 19:24:10 GMT

Monday thru Friday 8:30 - 5, work

Tuesday, Saturday, Sunday nights, Work

Every spare moment I get I spen with my man.

He is 29 and rugedly handsome, he wont let me call him cute anymore...:)

Living on my own is a blast.

Money is rollin in now like it is supposed to!!

and to top it all off Abi and the boys get home in a week and its been in the high 60's all week too!!

Lovin' every minute of it

Sat, 22 Apr 2006 22:07:24 GMT

I am so blessed to live in such a beautiful fun place. I am finally living my dream, living on my own in Homer, with a job that is at least paying the bills and I am doing it all on my own. That makes me happy!!

Well I jus thought that I would give you all a little update on my life, I miss you all back in CU. I think of it often and when I will be able to come back and visit!! :)

Well love to all, wish you could all come and visit, its the most beautiful, relaxing, fun place ever!!